Posted by: fcbaula on: September 28, 2007
My heart is there!
Where on eternal hills, my loved one dwells
Among the lilies and asphodels;
Clad in the brightness of the Great White Throne
Glad in the smile of Him who sits thereon
The glory gliding all His wealth of hair
And making His immortal face more fair—
THERE IS MY TREASURE and heart is there.
—part of the favorite poem [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: September 27, 2007
I feel like a hypocrite. None of the things I say, no matter how true they may be, will probably sink in to Niko. I’ve been lecturing him because his grades are really bad. But then I’m guessing that it probably crossed his mind on why does he really need to study or put high [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: September 24, 2007
I’m afraid of losing the connection that we used to have. The one only you and I know about.
With this long waiting period and all the troubles and worries that come with it, I am afraid of meeting you only because of my needs. It’s like everytime we talk my needs are always in [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: September 22, 2007
A male friend of mine texted me asking what exactly is pH care. It’s a local brand of feminine wash and he wasn’t quite sure if it was, I think he had a clue that it is, but he probably got confused because he found it in their bathroom. All of them were guys in [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: September 21, 2007
They really have no idea of what’s it like, Dad. What’s it like to hurt this way, to learn and to be disciplined this way. Only you know and truly understand the pain of every person. I find myself foolish for having tried to comfort people with words in my best effort to relieve [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: September 20, 2007
I woke up and yet I stayed in bed for at least the next 30 minutes. I didn’t want to get out of bed, or my room and face reality. Sometimes, it’s weird how I would rather choose to remain in my misery than go out of the cave where the light calls. It’s like [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: September 20, 2007
I woke up just now. I found my mom asleep and I looked for her cellphone which is usually just nearby, if not beside her. Then I realized it was gone. What I thought was just a dream or part of my other dream when she came to my room and asked me to text [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: September 19, 2007
I do. I thought, just as most people when things are running well, that hey, I don’t really fear it. And that just as experts would say, we need it so we would truly appreciate success later on. Or that it simply builds character, humility, for instance. And many more.
But then here I am, no [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: September 18, 2007
Naked in the desert—stripped off of everything “valued and valuable” in this world. Only then can one know what truly matters, what is the most essential of all.
I have it! I have it! I have what’s needed!
It’s a great favor and honor to have learned this, this early.
It’s easy for people to say you [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: September 18, 2007
My life, my purpose, my role from hereon to eternity is way more and beyond my present and even future needs.
Am I only close to the King now because of my needs?
I’ve asked Him every night before I sleep, what more does He want from me?
He answered finally.
Just to delight in Him.
It’s me that He [...]
