Posted by: fcbaula on: July 11, 2009
Excerpts from my notes which account for the exhausting journey I’ve had in the past three or four months. But at the end of it all, He still stoop all the way down to make me great.
April 13, 2009 Monday @ 4:10 AM
Everything is a mess without You and apart from You. It’s hard going [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: February 22, 2009
“Your fragrance is intoxicating in our secret place.”
Thank You Don Romantico. =)
Posted by: fcbaula on: February 20, 2009
It takes great courage and humility to continuously put aside the failures of yesterday and not allow it to take too much of today.
It’s a tough battle.
But You’re not giving up, are you?
Posted by: fcbaula on: June 28, 2008
Today, my family and I had rice, adobong kangkong, ampalaya salad, sinigang na baboy, paksiw na isda, fried chicken and indian mango for lunch. I ate with my uncle, his son, my aunt, her partner and her partner’s daughter. We had no electricity, for some unknown reason. But we were all eager to eat. Then [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: February 17, 2008
It was all about him this week.
He made my life as a Christian terribly difficult ever since he testified at the Senate last February 8. Because if thoughts could kill,then many of the people he mentioned are already dead. In my mind, I have already killed them. And not just one shot to the [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: October 25, 2007
You are the Creator of everything, right? Then were you also the one who put this desire in the human heart to need someone other than you? It makes us so prone to idolatry and I hate it. I hate it that I’m miserable needing another person and he can’t meet that need back. That [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: September 27, 2007
I feel like a hypocrite. None of the things I say, no matter how true they may be, will probably sink in to Niko. I’ve been lecturing him because his grades are really bad. But then I’m guessing that it probably crossed his mind on why does he really need to study or put high [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: September 24, 2007
I’m afraid of losing the connection that we used to have. The one only you and I know about.
With this long waiting period and all the troubles and worries that come with it, I am afraid of meeting you only because of my needs. It’s like everytime we talk my needs are always in [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: September 21, 2007
They really have no idea of what’s it like, Dad. What’s it like to hurt this way, to learn and to be disciplined this way. Only you know and truly understand the pain of every person. I find myself foolish for having tried to comfort people with words in my best effort to relieve [...]
Posted by: fcbaula on: September 20, 2007
I woke up and yet I stayed in bed for at least the next 30 minutes. I didn’t want to get out of bed, or my room and face reality. Sometimes, it’s weird how I would rather choose to remain in my misery than go out of the cave where the light calls. It’s like [...]
